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The End!!

The time is ticking and the days are counting. We only have few more days to see the seniors and next school year, we are the seniors already. I just want to thank all of my friends in the 4th year level. Thank you for sharing a part in my life. I know I don't have lots of friends in the seniors. I don't know why. Maybe I am a shy type of person. I hope you would have a good life outside that school. And also for those seniors that I have committed a sin, please forgive me. We will miss you.

For the upcoming graduation, the COCC or the Cadet Officer Candidate Corpse would be leading the graduation. I hope that it would be successful. We were already starting to practice for it.

MASS DEMO!

Wahahaha! I was kicked out of the group in the mass demonstration because I only practiced in the morning and went home in the afternoon. I was shocked when they told me that everyone who did not attend the Saturday practice are forced to go out of the team. I was one of them. That's why this week, all I did was to play DOTA and use my cellphone. Everyday starting last Monday, I did the same routine. It was fun at first but I got bored on the following days. And last Thursday, they already performed what they were practicing for the whole week. It was a great success and I think that the delegates loved it. After their performance, we headed straight to the gym to watch the SALIW perform and the Stimuli (with its guest bassist Arrenzo Perea, our bassist.) Their performance was of the highest level. I love it.

You And I

This week was focused on our practice for the mass demonstration that will be held in our school. For this year, our school was assigned to host the Camp (I forgot the name of the camp...). It was a national camp wherein all of the Science High Schools around the Philippines are included. Our principal instructed us that our school should perform a welcome dance?! or a mass demonstration for the delegates that would be visiting our school.

That's is why the only thing we did in our school just practice. And we also fixed the banderitas that would be hanged in the pathway along the school. To be resourceful, we used the cover of our notebooks. In that way, we could save money. Wahaha!

WAIT!!!! This week was also the week when WE already talked. This was the time I was waiting for. I already fixed everything that should be fixed. All that I am praying for is that I hope that there would be no more pain that would tear us apart.

Love Song

"The first part of this song, I guess
Should start with something sweet
Cause love songs often do,
And you know me, I'm such a geek
For songs that I could sing to you
And I'm hoping this could be one
And I hope that you would like me
Este... like it when I'm done

The second part is easy
To mess up with something cheesy
So I better choose my words
Cause I don't want it to be mushy
Cause that's the thing with love songs
And that is the tricky part
It's hard not to sound corny
When you're singing from the heart

And when the chorus comes,
I must come up with something clever
For you it's just a love song
But for me it's now or never!
And though I tried my best to make it beautiful and true
I could never make a song as beautiful as you"

For this week, I am starting to come up with a song dedicated to my one and only. But to my disappointment, The words I am looking for won't come out of my mind. What's the problem Pau? I want to compose a song for her to know how much I love her and for her to know who am I without her in my life. The title of the song was "Who am I Without You?". I don't want to ask for someone's help because I want it to be special and I want it to come from my heart.

I hope that there would come a time that I will be singing this song in front of her. And I hope if that time would come, she will be able to know how much I love her.

Fade to Black

"Love comes to those who still hope even they've been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed, to those who still love even though they've been hurt before."

Things around the school started to get crazy because of what had happened with us. That's why I am always not in the mood if I am in school. But still, she still enlightens my day. Thanks to her, for she always put smile on my face. She raise my up even though I am so down. I guess this thing I felt for her for almost 2 years will be the hardest thing to forget in my life. I guess this would be the greatest challenge in my life.

I am hoping that someday, ourselves would meet again and bring back what was lost. And I hope that if that day would come, there would be no more pain as we are together.

One Step Backward.....

I think this was one of the worst weeks in my life here in CNSHS. I didn't know that this would come up like this. I thought I am already over with her. But to my big surprise, I am still deeply in love with her. I thought that I will be able to remove her here inside my heart if I will be loving somebody else but I think that's love. And because of what I did, karma gave me what I deserve. Almost all of her friends were mad at me. And I think they want to kill me.

But then, I still have my friends at my back. I thank them for they gave me comfort during this time. But they still told me that I am the one that is wrong. I know from myself that I am the one that is wrong that's is why I accepted all of the consequences. And with this consequences, there comes my LOVE drifting away from me. I think that this was the heaviest consequence given to me. But that is life.

Sorry if this entry is too short. I guess my mind is not yet on its normal mode. Sorry.

disENCHANTED!

How does she know you love her?
How does she know she's yours?

How does she know that you love her?

How do you show her you love her?

How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?
How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?
How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?

It's not enough to take the one you love for granted
You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say...
"How do I know he loves me?"
(How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?)
"How do I know he's mine?"
(How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?)

Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind?
Send you yellow flowers when the sky is grey? Heyy!
He'll find a new way to show you, a little bit everyday
That's how you know, that's how you know!
He's your love...

You've got to show her you need her
Don't treat her like a mind reader
Each day do something to need her
To believe you love her

Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know their true love is true...
How do you know he loves you?
(How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you need her?)
How do you know he's yours?
(How does she know that you really, really, truely-)

Well does he take you out dancin' just so he can hold you close?
Dedicate a song with words in
Just for you? Ohhh!

He'll find his own way to tell you
With the little things he'll do
That's how you know
That's how you know!

He's your love
He's your love...

That's how you know
(la la la la la la la la)
He loves you
(la la la la la la la la)
That's how you know
(la la la la la la la la)
It's true
(la la la la la)

Because he'll wear your favorite color
Just so he can match your eyes
Rent a private picnic
By the fires glow-oohh!

His heart will be yours forever
Something everyday will show
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know!

He's your love...

That's how she knows that you love her
That's how you show her you love her

That's how you know...
That's how you know...
He's your love...

Wahaha. This was our piece for our musical play in our English subject. We are now starting to practice for this play. We hope that this would be a great success for us.

Life After You

Ten miles from town and I just broke down
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home
To tell you I was wrong but you already know

Believe me I won't stop at nothin'
To see you so I've started runnin'

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must've been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wastin' my time

Oh, why did I ever doubt you?
You know I would die here without you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm runnin' back to tell you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do, yeah

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' 'bout all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through, yeah
Know there's no life after you

I am amazed with this song. I hope that someday I would come up with this kind of song.

For the week, nothing exciting happened as far as I could remember. Same routine everyday.

RAIN!

"It was raining, raining, raining.
It was raining, raining, raining.
It was raining, raining, raining.
It was raining, raining hard.
It was blah blah blah......."

This week, the English club launched their traditional festival and for the first time, I was included on one of its contests. I was sent to the Jazz Chant. I thought at first that the grouping system would be by year level but it was changed. It was done randomly. So for each group, there would be representatives for each year level. For my group, Paul Tamio, Denise Baysan and I were the representatives of the third year level. We started to have our practice last Tuesday. At first, I thought that our group were the last in the standing but I ignore it and began to participate actively. Then Ma'am May sent two of the members of the Jazz Chant of our school. They were Lance and Joshua, my friends. Thanks to them, we began to gain more powers. I thought at first that the specified time was no enough but at the end, it is just enough. At the performance day, we were all nervous. We still practice for 2 times before the real performance. And of course, we did not forget to pray for Him to guide us along the way. And after the prayer, we did some picture takings, just to pave the nervousness. And when its our time to perform, all of a sudden, I felt like my body became so light. And the best part was the ending. It was a big relief for us. But the party?! is not yet over. We were surprised after the emcee had announced the winner for the Jazz Chant contest. WE WERE ON THE FIRST PLACE! wahaha... I thought that we won't win anything but with my surprise, I was wrong.

I think this is one of the most memorable moments in my life here in CNSHS. Thank You!

TICK TOCK!

I guess this would be the start of the end. I hope that this ending would not be a mess.

For this week, our school conducted a "Career Orientation" for the juniors and seniors. This program was held for us to have some background about the course we will be choosing as we enter in the college level. In this program, the best of the best teachers were chosen to lead the program and preach us about our future course. They told us some encouraging words to enlighten us. And this program was a success, I think. I'm sure this program had enlighten the students about their life in college.

Actually, I am not yet ready to go to college as of now. I am still in the enjoying stage of my high school life. I still want to do more things that I haven't done in my elementary days. But high school changed me a lot, CNSHS changed me a lot. It had brought me a lot of burden in my life but I was able to overcome it even though some of it was a mess. I still want to stay in this school. I still want to be with my friends who were always there when I need them. Thank you guys!

I guess that this is the end of the beginning.

OUR REACTION!!!!!

We were told that we would be having some Saturday classes. They said that we would have it three times. When I first heard the news, I felt disappointed because DepEd had already removed our Semestral Break and what's the use of this pay up classes?!!? But after the discussion about it with Ma'am Arceo, i have realized that this is for us and good thing that the teachers didn't follow that other plan (plan A: to make a module and let the students answer it). They said that plan b favors us, students. We love you!!!

So my reaction for this is nothing!! It's okay now for me to have classes on Saturday. WAHAHAH!!! Good thing It is only three. I hope that there would be no more typhoon that would enter our area of responsibility. THANK YOU!!!!

WE'RE BACK!!

I could say that the start of my week in school for 2010 is not that bad. Of course, there are bad things that happened but there are also good things. I miss my friends. I miss our bonding times.

But the only thing that I hate is that is still have a hangover about the vacation. I can't forget how happy I am during the Christmas vacation. Thanks to you guys!!!

Back to my school!!! I also miss my teachers. WAHAHA!!! That's true!!

I guess the only thing that made my week bad is that the PT would be next week. I HATE PT!!! So now I am praying to Him to bless me and guide through it. I hope that I would have a good score this time!!

"THE PLAN WAS NOT PURSUED!!! MAYBE NEXT YEAR, IT WOULD BE RESUMED"

thank YOU!!!!!

I just want to thank all of the people who shared a part of my 2009!!! Thank You for making my 2009 memorable to me, even it is negative or positive!!! THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!! Without you guys, my 2009 might have been thrown like a garbage. THANK YOU AGAIN!!!

And it is now time for me to go back on my business, my homework!!!! I HATE HOMEWORK!!!! WAHAHA!!! Our chemistry homework was a nosebleed. Wahaha. Good thing that my friend, INTERNET, is there to help me. Thank you internet!!!

(ALL CAPS!!!) IT"S A NEW YEAR!!! I HOPE THAT THE START OF MY YEAR WOULD BE GOOD. AND I HOPE ALSO THAT I WOULD FINISH THIS ASSIGNMENTS!!!!

(This blog entry only focuses on the thank you parts!!)