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The End!!

The time is ticking and the days are counting. We only have few more days to see the seniors and next school year, we are the seniors already. I just want to thank all of my friends in the 4th year level. Thank you for sharing a part in my life. I know I don't have lots of friends in the seniors. I don't know why. Maybe I am a shy type of person. I hope you would have a good life outside that school. And also for those seniors that I have committed a sin, please forgive me. We will miss you.

For the upcoming graduation, the COCC or the Cadet Officer Candidate Corpse would be leading the graduation. I hope that it would be successful. We were already starting to practice for it.

MASS DEMO!

Wahahaha! I was kicked out of the group in the mass demonstration because I only practiced in the morning and went home in the afternoon. I was shocked when they told me that everyone who did not attend the Saturday practice are forced to go out of the team. I was one of them. That's why this week, all I did was to play DOTA and use my cellphone. Everyday starting last Monday, I did the same routine. It was fun at first but I got bored on the following days. And last Thursday, they already performed what they were practicing for the whole week. It was a great success and I think that the delegates loved it. After their performance, we headed straight to the gym to watch the SALIW perform and the Stimuli (with its guest bassist Arrenzo Perea, our bassist.) Their performance was of the highest level. I love it.

You And I

This week was focused on our practice for the mass demonstration that will be held in our school. For this year, our school was assigned to host the Camp (I forgot the name of the camp...). It was a national camp wherein all of the Science High Schools around the Philippines are included. Our principal instructed us that our school should perform a welcome dance?! or a mass demonstration for the delegates that would be visiting our school.

That's is why the only thing we did in our school just practice. And we also fixed the banderitas that would be hanged in the pathway along the school. To be resourceful, we used the cover of our notebooks. In that way, we could save money. Wahaha!

WAIT!!!! This week was also the week when WE already talked. This was the time I was waiting for. I already fixed everything that should be fixed. All that I am praying for is that I hope that there would be no more pain that would tear us apart.

Love Song

"The first part of this song, I guess
Should start with something sweet
Cause love songs often do,
And you know me, I'm such a geek
For songs that I could sing to you
And I'm hoping this could be one
And I hope that you would like me
Este... like it when I'm done

The second part is easy
To mess up with something cheesy
So I better choose my words
Cause I don't want it to be mushy
Cause that's the thing with love songs
And that is the tricky part
It's hard not to sound corny
When you're singing from the heart

And when the chorus comes,
I must come up with something clever
For you it's just a love song
But for me it's now or never!
And though I tried my best to make it beautiful and true
I could never make a song as beautiful as you"

For this week, I am starting to come up with a song dedicated to my one and only. But to my disappointment, The words I am looking for won't come out of my mind. What's the problem Pau? I want to compose a song for her to know how much I love her and for her to know who am I without her in my life. The title of the song was "Who am I Without You?". I don't want to ask for someone's help because I want it to be special and I want it to come from my heart.

I hope that there would come a time that I will be singing this song in front of her. And I hope if that time would come, she will be able to know how much I love her.

Fade to Black

"Love comes to those who still hope even they've been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed, to those who still love even though they've been hurt before."

Things around the school started to get crazy because of what had happened with us. That's why I am always not in the mood if I am in school. But still, she still enlightens my day. Thanks to her, for she always put smile on my face. She raise my up even though I am so down. I guess this thing I felt for her for almost 2 years will be the hardest thing to forget in my life. I guess this would be the greatest challenge in my life.

I am hoping that someday, ourselves would meet again and bring back what was lost. And I hope that if that day would come, there would be no more pain as we are together.

One Step Backward.....

I think this was one of the worst weeks in my life here in CNSHS. I didn't know that this would come up like this. I thought I am already over with her. But to my big surprise, I am still deeply in love with her. I thought that I will be able to remove her here inside my heart if I will be loving somebody else but I think that's love. And because of what I did, karma gave me what I deserve. Almost all of her friends were mad at me. And I think they want to kill me.

But then, I still have my friends at my back. I thank them for they gave me comfort during this time. But they still told me that I am the one that is wrong. I know from myself that I am the one that is wrong that's is why I accepted all of the consequences. And with this consequences, there comes my LOVE drifting away from me. I think that this was the heaviest consequence given to me. But that is life.

Sorry if this entry is too short. I guess my mind is not yet on its normal mode. Sorry.